Differences

And my dear we differ on whole perspective of life

Your ultimate goal is to settle down

And mine is to travel, roam and never to settle for less

You live today looking at future

Undermining the present

And mine is to gain most out of this moment

So tell me now my dearest

How can we fathom the togetherness

In this mess

In this collision where you and I are filled with differences

For I want to soar up to the sky

Not with the roots binding me by

I love you

I don't want to lie

But this is where I have to say goodbye

For I want to soar up to the sky

Not with the roots binding me by

Video Adaptation of Little Joys of Life on Project Baakha

 

मौसम

बेमौसम आएको झरी झैँ 

तिमी आयौ मेरो जिन्दगीमा 

हुरिले भरेको यो मनलाई 

शान्त फेरि बनाउन 

आफ्नै सोचको आतन्कमा

एक्लै म निसास्सिदा 

चिसो आनन्दको बतासझैँ 

तिमी आयौ मेरो जिन्दगीमा

आफ्नै सहर मलाई अन्जान लाग्दा

कोलाहलमा म आत्तिदा

तिमी आयौ मलाई सम्हाल्न

निर्धक्क मलाई बनाउन

न्यानो घाम पनि ल्यायौ साथमा

इन्द्रेणी भर्न मेरो जिन्दगीमा 

   

 

याद

आज अनायासै तिम्रो याद आयो 

केहि भयो की भनि मन एकैछिन आत्तियो 

के छ हाल बताइदेउ 

केहि खबर बरु सुनाइदेउ 

वर्षौं बिते छ सायद 

सङ्गै हामी नहिदेको 

समय निक्कै बिते छ सायद

चिया पिउदै गफमा हामी रमाएको 

संसार जित्ने आशमा होला सायद

बिच बाटोमा हामी छुट्टेको

की हो मात्रै बाटो हामीले बिराएको

के छ हाल बताइदेउ 

केहि खबर बरु सुनाइदेउ 

To The One

Like a warm ray of sun in winter

Like a smooth breeze in scorchy summer

You are my safe haven in this crazy world

My best friend and also a lover.

Each day I fall in love with you

A little more than the last

An each day is not enough 

For time is running away too fast

I fell in love with the artist in you

With the story-teller in  you

Eventually, I fell in love deeply

With everything that makes you 'You' 

Unconditionally, I fell in love with you

Just like that out of the blue.

My one and only

My 'The One'

Thank you 

Thank you for being a strong pillar I can lean on

For holding me together when my world fell apart

For stopping by that night 

To make sure that I am alright

For listening to me when my world went deaf

And told me that I am brave

You caught me when I fall

Guided me when I stall

Even at your moment of low

You made sure that I wasn't so

Most of all, thank you

For trusting me with your love

Trusting me with your inner demons

For letting me hold you

For choosing my shoulder to cry on

For letting this Jigsaw Puzzle come together

Before 2018 is over

It has been a while since I wrote anything. Maybe it was a writer's block or maybe life got me busy and gave me excuses not to write. Or maybe I lost that inspiration, my muse. I binged on series, pre-occupied myself with future consequences and never hold a pen to write poetry or anything inspiring. I only hols them to plan the day and week to accomplish goals. I wrote about writing something, which like every other to do list is taking longer than expected to get checked off. 

However, I did jot down few of the ideas and phrases and before I realised it was end of 2018. So much happened this year, I ought to write about it but I lost the track of time. 

Before, this year ends, I had to write this, my inability to write to enhance my writing. This blog somehow kept me close to my creation and I shall continue to do so. I will take this rough sketch of a writing and sharpen my almost blunt writing. 

How I realise I should start writing and pursue what I just abruptly stopped? Because words came to haunt me in my dream. No seriously. I woke up scared that morning. In my dream, thoughts and words formed so beautifully but I when I tried to write it down on paper or save it on a note of my phone, I just couldn't. I got caught up in the loop and I tried repeatedly to take note but I just couldn't, just like in real life where I got caught up on busy life of adulthood where I couldn't reflect upon the issues or tear my heart out in paper. 

I woke up with a tremor. I checked my phone in the hopes I got it on my phone's note probably where I was trying to type my thoughts so desperately. I knew I needed to write but I no longer had way with words not as much as I used to have. I believed it will grow with time but I guess I forgot to water it properly and tend to meet my expectations. I lost myself in the realm of adulting, adjusting to new life that I missed out on doing one thing that I love to do so much, writing. Actually, as a matter of fact I missed out on doing lots of thing that I love to do, for instance dancing, reading books, travelling. I don't knoe when my life changed from reading books into glaring at screen, taking a train, coming home, eating, glaring at screen, lying on bed and then sleeping. And Repeat. 

Even the song you love the most becomes boring when it is on repeat. Yet I was doing nothing to get rid of it. Maybe I was enjoying it or maybe I was too tired to do anything about it- mentally and physically. My way to shuffle the reality was to write down my thoughts, reflect upon the day, thus, the answer. I need to start writing again, to clear the mess in my head, to find a perspective. To put down in words what happened in this year that changed me completely as a person. Therefore, more stories coming along and hopefully some poetry. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2019!!!

To the Love

Happy Valentine’s Day!!!

Wow, the town is red again and whatsoever love is in the air. Social Medias are filled with every love quotations and even a heartless opinion about the day. Many believe it is a waste of time and money while many believes in showcasing their gifts and present how awesome their day is going. But the fact remains, no matter what perspective people may hold, Valentines has always given a whole new reason for the lovers to treat their other half in the best way possible (of course, those who are interested).

While many argue that as St. Valentines was executed on the particular day so it is more like celebrating the death of a person but what could be more honoring to the person who sacrificed his life for existence of love in the world than by spreading love around and expressing the emotions out loud. It is not about celebrating over the dead body of a person but is rather keeping up the deeds he sacrificed his life for by continuing to rejoice love with great charm in this world where expressing love stills seems like a taboo.

Of course, love should be celebrated every day and one does not need a special day to make that special someone feel more special but not all of us are so expressive and romantic at all times. Valentine’s Day, is a reason for inexpressive ones to express their love in a very special manner. It is not always necessary to buy expensive gifts and do boastful approach in love but by showing simple gesture of love and care you can make the other half feel special and this very day gives an excuse to the lovers to tell their other counterparts, how blessed they are to have them in life.

Time to express love more because world needs more of love.

And for those who are single, it’s time to celebrate singledom and pour love to yourselves because who can love you better than you yourself. 

Hope you all will enjoy your Valentine's with an awe.

Let’s spread love people.

Happy New Beginning!!!

 “A story to foretell

A new journey

With new tale

But

Before every beginning

There’s a farewell”

-Jenisha Manandhar

Farewell is a requirement for a new beginning. Until and unless we say goodbye to one thing we cannot completely move on to next just like an end of a year marks the beginning of New Year. Definitely not all of us are so fond of farewell especially when it comes to say bye-bye to the people, to the things that you have been so attached to. More attached we are with people, things, and moments more hard it is to part away. Farewell is not an easy task yet we are inclined to do it sometimes to end things and sometimes to mend things.

Some people are so important, so special, some feelings are so essential and some moments so meant to be treasured; but life- life is not a fairy tale and there will come a time when things are not same as they have always been.  A change at times, leads to parting away.

Photo Courtesy: Silent Photography

Well, good thing about the goodbye is, it gives us new start, new path to follow. We might be little confused and bewildered at first but my friend, it’s all about taking one step ahead with courage and believe in yourself. And sometimes it sets you free from attachments, unworthy relationships and sometimes it just feels good.  Like with the end of year, we celebrate the end, cherishing the lessons and moments that year brought to us so that we can welcome a new year with maturity and positivity. Parting is necessary otherwise we would not get a new year.

Now, as we are at the beginning of yet new year; its time to say farewell not only to passing year but to all the fears, negativity, old grudges and heartbreaks. A whole new year is here and it is time for a fresh start, so let’s grab our good emotions, courage, and begin this journey with smile and positivity. Let’s make this year a happy year.

Happy 2017!!!

Bewitched

Maybe it was a storyteller in you that made me want to make a story with you. May be it was an artist in you, that made everything beautiful around you. You call me witch but I am bewitched in your love. My all magic fails me in front of you. You are the answer to the smile on my face, reason to every decision I make, and excuses I search just to see you at least once a day.

I love you. I had fallen in love with you way before, you realized that there could be something between us. Maybe in between those tears that I shed and sometimes you did or may be it happened between those heart-warming hugs and few nonsensical dirty talks. It could have happened anytime, maybe the first time I saw you or after our few thoughtful conversations that you influenced me and inspire me somehow.

Amidst the chaos of life, I found calmness in you and that moment I fell for you. When you managed to stay in my head even at the busiest hour of the day, I knew that gravity of feelings has centered on you. Yes, I never let you know. I never pursued my feelings toward you because this time I did not want to play any games or present myself as something to impress you. I adore the things the way they were: our late night conversations, few flirtations here and there and at last the “I Love You”. I don’t know what that meant for you but for me it resonated its real meaning and I let it be the way it should be. I wanted us to be the best or nothing. We are best at what we are together and I love us. I am just happy loving you from afar, not destroying anything, specially, what we have with each other. I didn’t want to ruin anything with my feelings. I was happy the way things were. It was alright. Of course, I would be happy with me by your side, loving you and you loving me. I enjoy listening to you and what more did I need. I was and am glad that you are right there at the other end of the line and if that continues; the ‘US’ continues, what we have continues, then I don’t mind if you date me or other; if you marry me or other; as long as you are there, as long as we are together, everything is alright. No fear of circumstances can stop us.

P.S. Now don’t be flattered, because I am exaggerating and I know it’s cheesy but it’s your kind of cheese. So I hope you at least like it; answers to your question.

I Love You.

Love the way my heart swings...

Photo Courtesy: Wetsun Maskey

I want to find you

Find you at the place

Where you hugged me tight

When my tears wouldn’t stop

And you told me everything will be alright

Promised me to be right there

I want to find you again

Like that

Where I could just stay close to you

Lie my head at your chest

And listen to your heartbeat

Close to me

I can spend my forever in those arms of yours

I can spend eternity by your side

I adore every moment that has your presence

I love you to the core

And if it means to cry like last time

Going through the pain

That helps me find you like last time

I wouldn’t mind

I love you

And I don’t know how shall I put it in form of words but I simply do

I love the way my heart swings at your mere presence

I love the way my blood rush when you touch my hand

I love everything that happens whenever you are around.

समय

धेरै  रोएपछि यो खुशी आएको होकी 

यो खुशीपछि फेरि पिडा आउने हो 

रमाउँछु यो पल अनि डराउँछु पनि 

खुशी हराउँने पो होकी भनेर 

नयाँ साथीको नयाँ साथले पुराना तिता पल पखालेझैँ लाग्छ

आज मलाई फेरि जीउन सिकाएझैँ लाग्छ 

आज आफ्नो हाँसो सुनेर आफै अचम्म मान्छु 

अनि उसको कुरामा एत्तिकै रमाउँछु 

आज बदलियेछु म सायद 

अनि यही बदलाबसँग पिरती बसेछ सायद।