Love the way my heart swings...

Photo Courtesy: Wetsun Maskey

I want to find you

Find you at the place

Where you hugged me tight

When my tears wouldn’t stop

And you told me everything will be alright

Promised me to be right there

I want to find you again

Like that

Where I could just stay close to you

Lie my head at your chest

And listen to your heartbeat

Close to me

I can spend my forever in those arms of yours

I can spend eternity by your side

I adore every moment that has your presence

I love you to the core

And if it means to cry like last time

Going through the pain

That helps me find you like last time

I wouldn’t mind

I love you

And I don’t know how shall I put it in form of words but I simply do

I love the way my heart swings at your mere presence

I love the way my blood rush when you touch my hand

I love everything that happens whenever you are around.

समय

धेरै  रोएपछि यो खुशी आएको होकी 

यो खुशीपछि फेरि पिडा आउने हो 

रमाउँछु यो पल अनि डराउँछु पनि 

खुशी हराउँने पो होकी भनेर 

नयाँ साथीको नयाँ साथले पुराना तिता पल पखालेझैँ लाग्छ

आज मलाई फेरि जीउन सिकाएझैँ लाग्छ 

आज आफ्नो हाँसो सुनेर आफै अचम्म मान्छु 

अनि उसको कुरामा एत्तिकै रमाउँछु 

आज बदलियेछु म सायद 

अनि यही बदलाबसँग पिरती बसेछ सायद। 

अधैर्य मन

अधैर्य मन
चंचल यो उसको यादमा
आफ्नै दुनियाँमा हराएर
एत्तिकै मुस्कुराउँछ

नसम्हालिने यो मनको भाव
समेत्दा समेत्दै बहिजान्छ
समुन्द्र को छाल झैँ

उस्को सामुन्य आइपुग्द्दा टक्क रोकिन्छ
यो साँस मेरो
हृदयमा बास बसेछ
क्यार उसको
उसकै कल्पनामा व्यतित हुन्छ
अनि उस्कै यादमा हराउँछ
यो मन मेरो

भुलाउन उसलाई
कहाँ कहाँ  डुलाउँछु
यो मनलाई

अधैर्य यो मन भने
उसैमा गएर अल्झिन्छ
चुडिएर गएको चंगा
रुखमा गएर अल्झिएझैँ

Her

I don't miss her,
I miss the person I was when I was with her I dont miss her in particular But I miss our conversations
Though they never met any conclusions
Nothing ever made sense But every nonsense made sense with her Our heartbreaks our crushes our happiness
No matter how minute, we needed to tell each other Cos' nobody understood us better than one another
I miss Her happy laughter Her crazy sense Her protectiveness The food she made And the way she fed me Like a mother
I remember The day she left The day she abandoned The day she said goodbye No I don't miss Her in particular
But I miss our Need to see each other Or me calling her at insane hour of time just because the crush replied hi Because she knew what that meant for me
Sometimes its not the need to share grief that makes you want a companion Sometimes its the need to share happiness,
The good news that makes you wish you had a company
To talk with
You need a friend with whom you could blabber
All the while as she cooks dinner for you and still listen to you And still reply to your nonsense without judging you I miss that friend of mine No I don't miss Her in particular But i miss that friend who just got me like no other

And Let Go...

There are times...

I want to hold everything possible so nothing slips

Next,

I want to let go of everything so not to bear any attachments 

May be this is what change does to us 

And so does betrayal

There are times...

I get tired coming off strong

Times there are no options other than being one

Times I wish I could tear apart everything in hand

But I smile and let go

This episode seems so long

Like a mourning song

No sooner sadness becomes habit

And happiness frightens you

Attention flusters you

Attachment tortures you

But then you face it like a warrior

Letting it hurt you 

To help you feel it

And let go